This is maybe a late post, knowing that my gorgeous little princess Khansa is 16th months old now, meaning that I’ve become a mom almost a year and a half now…not a short time!
But perhaps, one year is a right time to reflect what is being a mom all about. Because changes are happen so fast, every second there are changes…just like people said; one thing that keeps constant is changes. And so you can imagine how many changes that happened in a year period.
A friend stated to me once, when I just got married for few months, “how come I didn’t see any changes in you after being a married person?” (I think I already wrote about this, feel free to search this blog to read it 
). At that time, I couldn’t argue her, because I think she’s right. Nothing has changed in me, except my status
But now my friend, I think you’ve already changed your mind about it. Because you’re a mother too now . For sure, you and I know, there are a whole lot of changes!
For me, getting through this one year period of being a mom, is all about caring, sharing, sacrificing, and being grateful for His most precious gift. Of course, there are a lot of joys and laughter…yet, there are also tears fall along the way…
Being a mom, my daughter is becoming the centre of my universe. It’s all about her, 24/7 (or maybe more). Even though I cannot be with her all day long, but she’s the only one I think about wherever I am, whatever I did. When she’s sick, got cough or fever, it’s me the one who hurt most seeing her suffered. When she’s smile, it’s like I can do anything in the world to keep that smile on her face…
I used to go where I want to go, do what I want to do, and buy what I want to buy, not needing advice from others…but now, it seems like I have her as the reason for all decisions I should make…go or no go, do or not do, buy or not buy, she must be taking into account…not like she’s a burden, but more like she’s becoming my action control, motivation, and excuse…those are (actually) things I needed nowadays…
I know, I’m far for being a perfect mom…I know I still need to learn a lot, about patient, affection, and tons of things about child education…
But God knows I’m trying hard…so hard to the point that someday my child can proudly say that she’s the luckiest girl in the world to have me as her Mom……so help me God…
~Dedicated to my best friend ever, Khansa Nuri Mufidah~
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