Saya selalu saja kesulitan menyusun kata2 doa. Walaupun sebenarnya tidak banyak yang ingin saya minta, tapi saya ingin menceritakan semuanya kepada Mu ya Rabbi, segala keluh kesah, segala sakit hati, segala harapan dan keinginan…tapi entah kenapa begitu susah rangkaian kata itu tersusun…begitu sulit memilih kata2 yang pantas untuk Mu yang Maha Agung…
Tapi hamba tahu, Engkau Maha Mendengar, Maha Mengetahui segala isi hati, Maha Memberi…tidak ada tempat hamba mengadu selain Engkau, tak ada daya dan kekuatan melainkan dengan pertolonganMu saja, maka dengarkan dan kabulkan doa hamba Mu yg dhoif ini:

 
“Bismillah…Ya Rabb, tunjukkan jalan yang terbaik bagi kami…tambahkan kesabaran, kekuatan, dan keikhlasan untuk menjalani semua ketetapanMU…ampuni kami…jadikan kami hamba Mu yang pandai bersyukur….amiin ya Rabbal ‘aalamiin”.

XOXO,

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But perhaps, one year is a right time to reflect what is being a mom all about. Because changes are happen so fast, every second there are changes…just like people said; one thing that keeps constant is changes. And so you can imagine how many changes that happened in a year period.

A friend stated to me once, when I just got married for few months, “how come I didn’t see any changes in you after being a married person?” (I think I already wrote about this, feel free to search this blog to read it ). At that time, I couldn’t argue her, because I think she’s right. Nothing has changed in me, except my status

But now my friend, I think you’ve already changed your mind about it. Because you’re a mother too now . For sure, you and I know, there are a whole lot of changes!

For me, getting through this one year period of being a mom, is all about caring, sharing, sacrificing, and being grateful for His most precious gift. Of course, there are a lot of joys and laughter…yet, there are also tears fall along the way…

Being a mom, my daughter is becoming the centre of my universe. It’s all about her, 24/7 (or maybe more). Even though I cannot be with her all day long, but she’s the only one I think about wherever I am, whatever I did. When she’s sick, got cough or fever, it’s me the one who hurt most seeing her suffered. When she’s smile, it’s like I can do anything in the world to keep that smile on her face…

I used to go where I want to go, do what I want to do, and buy what I want to buy, not needing advice from others…but now, it seems like I have her as the reason for all decisions I should make…go or no go, do or not do, buy or not buy, she must be taking into account…not like she’s a burden, but more like she’s becoming my action control, motivation, and excuse…those are (actually) things I needed nowadays…

I know, I’m far for being a perfect mom…I know I still need to learn a lot, about patient, affection, and tons of things about child education…

But God knows I’m trying hard…so hard to the point that someday my child can proudly say that she’s the luckiest girl in the world to have me as her Mom……so help me God…

~Dedicated to my best friend ever, Khansa Nuri Mufidah~

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Aku tak bisa bernyanyi,

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Aku hanya bisa belajar menulis,

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(Original Writing by Reza Ervani)

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